Tuesday, June 24, 2008

I'm back... so now what the hell am I going to do?

So I am officially done with going to RI to help my grandmother. We went on vacation last week and I just did three overnights in a row at my new job. Now what the heck am I supposed to do? I have some grand plans. Paint the house. Work on the garden. Start running again ( I see your eyes rolling). Write a little ( OK your eyes will get stuck like that if you keep it up). I know it hasn't been long but I already feel like I'm slipping down the slippery slope of laziness. Lydia on the other hand stays busy while I procrastinate. This is what I find on my camera after a day of loafing around the house.

Photo shoot ala Roxy cat.
Lion decked out also at photo shoot, in Steven's glasses.
Close up: Lydia, lion and fudgicle smears.

I guess the scary thing (or exciting thing if your an optimist) is that I am entering a new chapter in my life. I'm figuring out what to go to school for, RN or MFA? Lydia will be in full time school soon, and since I do overnight shifts I will have my days free. I know it's been one day of freedom but I am caged in by the future, (now even I'm rolling my eyes).

Friday, June 20, 2008

What a way to start the summer!

Our summer has begun. We just got back from staying with Corinne and Eric in Wellfleet. Usually it rains the entire time that we go on vacation. But this time we totally lucked out. It was in the mid seventies all week with crystal blue skies. We all had the time of our lives. Never has our family had such an amazing vacation. Lydia like her mum and dad totally adores Corinne and Eric. And they were as usual the bestest hosts.
I felt like P-Diddy most days because we hung out on the most amazing beach in Truro rarely coming into contact with anyone else. It was like our own private beach, hanging with our entourage.
The water was crisp but totally swimable. Lydia, the fearless of course ran full force into the water upon every arrival.
The happy family didn't get too sunburned fortunately.
Lydia totally loves Eric. What's not to love, outside of Corinne he's the funniest person she knows.
Eric and Steven ( new B.F.F.E.) also had a great time together, golfing and fishing. Lobsters and oysters for dinner, doesn't get much better.
And for probably the most astonishing event of the trip: for the first time in our seventeen years of friendship I was chauffeured by my learner's permitted friend. I'm so proud. I'm thinking a ladies road trip is in our future.
We had the greatest time.
We really needed this vacation.
Not for one second did I take our trip for granted.
The only sad part was saying goodbye.
I wish we lived closer so we could just randomly be together.
It was just so nice to hang out and the pristine surroundings didn't hurt.
Thanks again to the greatest hosts, you are so sweet, funny, gorgeous (I'm serious but I also really want to get invited back).

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Happy Birthday/ Fathers Day

Yesterday was Steven's Birthday and today is Fathers Day. Yesterday we gave him a bunch of presents but none was more prized than this Arsenal Jersey.
Well... maybe not as prized as seeing his first born sporting a matching uniform. I think I know for sure what Steven might have looked like as a child now.
We had a great day at Jamaica State Park with Jim, Mary, Dominic and the boys. As you can see the shirt has yet to come off.
I suspect we'll be seeing a lot of this jersey.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

All good things must ......

Lydia and I spent our last week in RI helping my grandma.
Very bittersweet.
We made it 10 months if you can believe it. Leaving most Mondays before the sun and coming home Thursday afternoon. Throughout this whole process Lydia has been pretty amazing and Steven has been really supportive.

Overall, it was a great experience for me. I feel really lucky that I got to spend all that time with my grandmother. This whole process enabled me to not only get close to my grandmother again, but it also helped me to understand the struggles and benefits of living in a multi-generational situation. The travelling was the worst part, but it had it's positives too. While VT had 6 feet of snow RI was pretty much snow free. We got to spend our weekends in the mountains and our weekdays near the ocean. Not bad. A really hard thing about this was that we made so many friends in RI. And having to say goodbye. Having moved (sprinted really) away from RI at 18, I never dreamed of spending so much time back there or meeting so many great people. This is Lydia's class singing at the end of the year family night/ graduation. So cute.
This is the gang that basically adopted Lydia from the first moment they met. Lydia fell right into place and the threesome became a foursome.
For all the stress, anxiety and mishaps, we all survived. I have gotten the opportunity to give back on some level to the person who meant so much to me as a child. I also have come to terms with the RI in me, ( anyone from RI who actually has escaped will understand this). We've made a lot of new friends and we are ready for our next big adventure. SUMMER!

Friday, June 13, 2008

We "still" love our town

I wonder all the time how we ended up here. There are thousands of places that we could have chosen. But we picked little ol' Brattleboro,VT. And most days I'm pretty happy that we made it here. The strolling of the heifers is a great time to love Bratt.



You pretty much see everyone you know. And you feel for a little while at least that you are amongst people who get you. It's really nice to be someplace where it's normal on some level for people to do yoga alone on the street and your child's male pre-school teacher to wear a feather boa and a dress to work.
So once a year our town parades some cows through town and half the town is in the parade while the other half cheers them on. The kids love it because they throw out a lot of candy.
The parents love it because it's one more day to do something free that the whole family can look forward to.
Even the monsters in this parade are offering friendly messages.
So the rest of the world thinks we are crazy. So we want to impeach the prez. So our town has a history of letting people hang out naked. I always said I wanted to live in a place were we weren't the "weird" family. We are still a little weird, but our freak flag doesn't seem to get noticed in our town.



Sunday, June 1, 2008

The Devil Inside

Sometimes it's a little easier to see the devil peaking out. Lately Lydia and I have been having some serious power struggles. All of you people out there who have children under to age of five or haven't been a parent to a five year old child in a while may scoff, but I'm telling you it can get rough.
Yesterday, I got up at 7:30 in the morning, (how dare I sleep "in" to 7:30 I know). And my little cherub of a child had scalped all of her dolls and a third of her hair was also cut off.
This has been an issue for a while. The girl loves a make-over. Usually I just deal and cut bangs or use a lot of clips and barrettes to make it look normal. This time I was obviously a little grouchy and well totally exasperated. So I just handed her the scissors and said "Cut as much off as you want now. Get it over with and I'll make an appointment at the salon for whatever is left." (Bad Mommy moment)
Well four hours and $35.00 later:


My child has short hair. A cut which is very sweet and cute and totally hers. It's something I never imagined for her and yet she is so beautiful.

Lesson learned: She is becoming her own person. It's not about hair and it's not about control. It's about a five year old wanting to cut her hair. Yes I wanted to cry as I watched those golden locks fall to the floor but it helped me to realize that of course she will always be an extension of me. But she isn't a reflection of me. And that's a good thing to start to realize, because it's hard enough to be yourself, it's damn near impossible to try be what your mom wants you to be.

Now if only I can remember this moment for the future when she decides to join the Young Republicans.